Why?

the feeling's back. the feeling of... well, like the many times where i was being left alone. times when no matter how much you want to do something, you just can't do it, because you are not allowed.

i feel so trapped. still... like a little bird locked up in a cage since birth, impossible to be released no matter how much i want to be let go. the feeling's building up, refilling the bottle which held my emotions. the bottle was spilling, but now its filling itself again. fantastic.

i see how happy my friends are through their pictures and stuff. how happy they were hanging out together, enjoying themselves. i wonder... what it feels like to be with my friends, hanging out outside of school. it's so painful, just thinking about that, because i know i'll never be able to feel that carefree feeling.

maybe like a little bird locked up in a cage since birth seems too - lenient. it's more like... like... i'm walking in the pastures as a small kid, and then suddenly i was caught in the thorn bushes. every time i feel like struggling, the thorns tighten around me. as i grow up, the sharper the thorns poking into me.

oh God, i want to talk to someone. i need to talk to someone... but heh. who has so much time to listen to me, huh? thanks to these thorns, the people i mix with in the end turn their backs and walk on. i know i'm not much to be with, not interesting enough, not... free because of the thorns. so they give up and walk on. i know how tiring it is to be with me, someone who just isn't very exciting to be a friend. i really understand that feeling, because i'm also very fed-up with myself too.

what am i going to do? is this going to continue until i die? i cannot believe this. i cannot fight against the thorns. i try not to be weak, but these thorns - i'm so used to them until i would feel lost without them. i'm practically begging, i need help. serious help.

it's also painful, u know, and pathetic as well, to know that you're not wanted. partly because i can't keep up, partly because... ah. what the heck. i don't see why i even existed. why do i exist? what's the point...? sigh.

Thoughts

i'm sitting in the living room, next to the balcony's glass door with the curtain drawn, using my computer and typing this right now. i've been thinking this for quite some time: SPM's over! i"m free!

but now, its Christmas Day. My family and I went to church and then drove all the way to Negeri Sembilan to check out the PLKN camp which i am assigned to go to. it was scary... because it looked just like the camp i joined (and left the next day because i had an appointment back home) in June.

National Service just wasn't the idea i had in mind to spend my after-school holidays. before June came, i was always thinking that i'll get a job before i get my SPM results (my best option, i hope) to sign up for college. but dang, guess God had other plans for me. going camping is a 'not bad' idea, but for three months in the jungle where all the insects are?? if i had a choice, i'd pass - definitely.

these few weeks after i finished SPM, i have to say i kinda wasted it by doing absolutely nothing. but recently my sister introduced a new manga with its anime to me. suddenly, my world became so much brighter... haha! but ridiculously, she did that a week ago. the manga's not even completed yet. sad.

sigh. now i'm sitting here comfortably (just don't ask how) and realizing that NS is going to be... next Saturday. oh my gosh. for those who are not chosen and are probably gloating by now, this is very nerve-wrecking... really.

*laughs* this is a silent night lol. signing out now - hinoiri.

Note To God

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak what's in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away

For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God

I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end

And for peace to mend this world

I'd say

I'd say

I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, 'cause love is overdue

And it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

I'd say please help us find a way

End all the bitterness

Put some tenderness in our hearts

I'd say

I'd say

I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, 'cause love is overdue

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

'Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

No

No

We can't do it on our own

So

So

(Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, 'cause love is overdue)

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

'Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

No

No

(No) We can't do it on our own

(So)

So

If I wrote a note to God

- Charice Pempengco

P.S. This girl's 17 years old (same age as me) & is a Filipino.

Super Junior

Yep, the title says it all! I suddenly became a huge fan of Super Junior =P

haha this snapshot was during the time they were making the "U" music video (i think). but either way, they look damn hot <3

there are a few songs from them that manage to push into my 'favourite songs' list XD

1. Super Girl (Super Junior M)

2. The One I Love (Super Junior K.R.Y)

3. Monster

4. Rokkugo (Super Junior T)

5. Me (Super Junior M)

6. U

7. Haengbok

8. It's You

9. Don't Don

10. Dancing Out (this one was filmed in Malaysia!!! in KL, might i add)

but i'll add some more when i return here... at the end of the year or starting next year. i just couldn't help it but want to specifically put up a post about them. i apologize though, i need a lot of time if i want to regain my touch on blogging. haha at the end of the year, i promise!

=P

All At Once

All at once
I finally took a moment and I'm realizing that
You're not coming back
And it finally hit me all at once
All at once
I started counting teardrops and at least a million fell
My eyes began to swell
And all my dreams were shattered all at once

Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
Though I must face it all alone
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once

All at once
I looked around and found that you were with another love
In someone else's arms
And all my dreams were shattered, all at once
All at once
The smile that used to greet me brightened someone else's day
She took your smile away
And left me with just memories, all at once

all at once
I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once
And that's all that matters now
All at once
And im drifting on a lonely sea

- Whitney Houston

P.S. secretly, i dedicated this to someone. then again, no one will ever know who this person actually is ^^

You Belong With Me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me

- Taylor Swift

P.S. reminds me when i was 16... ^^'

PLKN

Program Latihan Khidmat Negara : Nasional Service Malaysia...


I GOT SELECTED!!


T.T huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu... no way... i don't want...


but what can i do? can't fight with government anyway. yeah... i'm announcing to the world now... T.T

Last-Minute Post

as the title says... LAST-MINUTE POST!!

honestly! computer-celibacy is so... frustrating! no more entertainment!

major exam coming up in September - i ain't ready yet! T.T i feel so kelam-kabut... It's like

i'm running here and there in circles, finding no peace until next year!

*Sob* i feel tension... stress... craziness... stupidness...

oh, wait. i think i'm going crazy. you hear me? I'M TURNING CRAZY!!

just wanna say GOOD LUCK to my friends (you know who you are..). SPM trial's the closest... God will help too, i'm sure of it ^^ don't give up either, we only have a few more months before... bliss...

now - i sleep. nitez XD

P.S. this post was supposed to be nicer - paragraphs here and there. but there's something seriously wrong with this particular blog... so bear with it for a little while... it's ugly, i know.

No Surprise

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

Chorus
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no
As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why

Chorus
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
(stayed till today)
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

- Chris Daughtry

Hatin' On the Club

Now this will be the last time you did me wrong

No more laying up in your arms

No calling, saying you want me back

I'm packing my bags, what you think about that?

I stayed at home like a good girl do

But tonight baby you got me sad and blue

I just heard about the girl in your car, y'all kissing at the bar

Got me crying

Oh, you got me hatin' on the club

'Cause you took my love

Oh you took my love

Now you got me like whoahhh (why..)

You got me hatin' on the club (why..)

You took my love (why..)

Why'd you have to take my love (why..)

Whoahh...

And you can be mad at me all you want

I ain't coming in, I'll be waiting out front

Coming out the door with your girlfriend

You did me wrong, boy tell me where our love went

I stayed at home like a good girl do

Now you got me sad and blue

I just heard about the girl in your car, y'all kissing at the bar

Got me crying

Oh, you got me hatin' on the club

'Cause you took my love

Oh you took my love

Now you got me like whoahhh (why..)

You got me hatin' on the club (why..)

You took my love (why..)

Why'd you have to take my love (why..)

Whoahh...

Now this is the sound of a broken heart

There's only one reason why we're apart

She never would've made it to your car

If it wasn't for the club, I'd still have my love (I'd still have my love)

We would still have us (We would still have us)

I'd still have my love (I'd still have my love)

We would still have us

But now we're like whoah

Oh, you got me hatin' on the club

You took my love

Oh you took my love

You got her hatin

Boy you got her hatin on ohhh

You got her hatin

Boy you got her hatin on ohhh

You got her hatin

Boy you got her hatin on the club, club, club, club

-Rihanna

Touch My Hand

Saw you from a distance
Saw you from the stage
Something about the look in your eyes
Something about your beautiful face

In a sea of people
There is only you
I never knew what the song was about
But suddenly now I do

Trying to reach out to you,
touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again

I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
A wonderwall of stars
But the one that’s shining out so bright is the one right where you are

Trying to reach out to you,
touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something about the look in your eyes
Something about your beautiful face

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hands
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Yeah, yeah, yeah

-by David Archuleta

=)

ah... it's the... 22nd May. how shameful... but i just wanna say

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY!!!

to my best friend FELFEL - this post was supposed to be posted on the 19th, but i wasn't even at home til... 1.oo a.m. yeah, so i slept immediately.

pathetic, i know.

anyway, i just wanna say God Bless to my bff and i know that she's going to have a great year, even though there's SPM to worry about.

don't change much, fel, and keep the super nice and sweet *ahem*, and happy-go-lucky attitude! because... well, these are the reasons why people like you so much XDXD

anyway, Happy Birthday again! ^^

P.S. i'm really sorry this post is late... how embarassing.

Hanazakarino Kimitachihe

you know, i've known this shown for so many years... and i never knew the title of the movie. well, the title is japanese: Hanazakarino Kimitachihe, and the language is mandarin. obviously, i relied on the subtitles. the movie is really hilarious and sweet, as most of you would know. since i hadn't done anything to this blog, i figured i'd put something random.

the guy on the left is Wu Chun (super cute!) and the guy on the right is Jiro Wang (pretty cute, but Wu Chun cuter ^^). both guys are from Fahrenheit. the one in the middle is Ella from S.H.E.

yeah... and there's the awesomest manga too... (okay, one of the awesomest...)

i'm easily obsessed with these kind of stuff... trust me, i'm easily amused in this category.

yeah... i can't say much here... not sure what to say. i can't tell much on the synopsis of this story, for some reasons. but if you want to, you can always ask my sister. she was the one who made a lot of research and watched the series on youtube.

i don't have any time to watch or read the manga. i have a lot of studying to do until november comes. so, this blog will feel dead at times... *apologies pouring out from an Apology Bucket now*

anyway, that's all for now, i guess... (wow, it feels like an advertisement post...)

this is a random post. ja ne ^^

Questionnare tagged by 'even smarter' Cher Maine XD

1. What do you think about yourself?
i dunno.... you tell me.

2. Why?
Honestly, how should i know? i mean, it's for you to judge!

3. If you could make any character come to life, who would it be?
well... if you asked me last year, i would have said Edward Cullen. but now, i say Kuran
Kaname from Vampire Knight ^^

4. Have you regretted anything you did before?
Who hasn't?

5. Name two.
Erm... there's so many. i can't just sort two out... well, that's because i can't think of any right
now...

6. Have you liked someone the opposite sex before?
well, i'm certainly not lesbian. of course i've liked someone of the opp sex.

7. Name five.
TOTALLY PRIVATE!!! (KEEP OUT!)

8. How are you feeling right now?
tired. i'm having shoulder and back cramp from doing this questionnare.

9. What will most probably happen tomorrow?
funny you should mention. it's Good Friday tomorrow (no school!)... but, i think its gonna be
an ordinary day as well...

10. Who do you want to see most RIGHT NOW?
no one really...

11. Do you believe in God?
YES!!! XDXD

12. Do you love him? What do you mean?
i don't even understand the question...

13. Have you ever talked sick with your friends?
LOL not really...

14. Are ppl the opposite sex involved in your conversations too?
to be perfectly honest, i can't remember when was the last time i had a real conversation
with one of the opposite sex.

15. What do you want to achieve now?
my SPM. as in, really good results.

16. Name 6 friends.
1. Fel Yong
2. Joe Yee
3. Fel Wee
4. Rachel Hee
5. Cher Maine
6. Diviniya

17. Describe 3.
er... this is hard. a really sweet girl, i can tell you that. a real extrovert ^^

18. Who do you love more? 1 or 4?
please. i never choose like that. both are still my friends.

19. Use one word to describe 5.
among all people. what a coincidence. ok... funny.

20. If the world is coming to an end, what would you say to 2?
Joe, remember... God's always with you. now... AHHHHHHH!!!

Tag 5 people:
1. Rachel
2. Fel Yong
3. Hazel (sorry! ^^')
4. Chan Mann
5. ... any1 who wants can do it too ^^'

100 truths tagged by 'smart' Germaine XD

001. Real name: Sya Sook Yin Kimberly (when did i have a fake name?)
002. Nickname(s): Kim, Kimmy, Kimbol, Kimbolly, Kimberry...
003. Age: erm... 17, this year.
004. Horoscope: Cancer
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: Tadika Sri Indah
007. Middle School: SK Taman Kosas, SK Bukit Indah, SR Sri Sempurna
008. High School: SM Sri Sempurna
009. College schook: hopefully Monash?
010. Hair colour: Brown
011. Long or short: Long
012. Loud or Quiet: no idea. you decide.
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Phone
015. Health freak: Not that i know of.
016. Drink or Smoke: Neither.
017. Do you have a crush on someone: eh... not at the moment, no.
018. Eat or Drink: lol... both.
019. Piercings: Ears (one each)
020. Tattoos: oh i would love one (temporary XD)
021. Social or Anti-Social: I'm trying to be social
022. Righty or Lefty: Righty

Firsts
023. First piercing: age 7, i think
024. First relationship: Friendship
025. First Best Friend: Leah Shael Padman
026. First Award: British Council Exams / Yamaha Piano Exams
027. First Kiss: ...
028. First Pet: 2 hamsters
029. First Big Vacation: India, when i was still a baby =.=
030. First Love at first sight: A Malay boy, i think
031. First Big Birthday: i have no idea.
032. First Surgery: Age 9 or 10
033. First sport you joined: Squash, badminton, football

This or That
034. Orange or Apple Juice: Apple
035. Rock or Rap: erm, neither, i think.
036. Country or Screamo: Country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: Backstreet Boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Britney Spears, i think
039. Night or Day: Night - with stars *sigh*
040. Sun or Moon: Moon
041. TV or Internet: Both
042. Playstation or xbox: Playstation
043. Kiss or hug: Hug
044. Iguana or turtle: Turtle
045. Spider or bee: kill them both *shiver*
046. Fall or spring: Fall
047. Limewire or iTunes: Limewire
048. Soccer or baseball: Soccer

Currently
049. Eating: Nothing
050. Drinking: Nothing
051. Excitement level: Sleepy
052. I'm about to: Sleep
053. Listening to: Il Divo
054. Plan for today: Study
055. Waiting for: Me to finish this.. my fingers are painful, just typing this.
056. Energy level: you tell me. i'm about to doze off.
057. Thinking of someone: Yes

Future
058. Want kids: Sure
059. Want to get married: Erm, sure
060. When: When i'm older
061. How many kids do you want: As long as i can handle them.
062. Any name in mind: Isabel, i think (hey! i like that name, ok?? don't get me wrong!)
063. What did you want to be when you were little: Waitress/Cashier
064. Careers in mind: Pharmacy
065. Mellow future or wild: Balanced would be nice
066. Something you would never try: Liking an insect
067. When do you want to die: I'll let God decide on that.

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny: Both
070. Shorter or Taller: Taller (duh.)
071. Protective or Caring: Both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: Romantic
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms: Does it really matter?
074. Sensitive or Loud: Balanced would be nice
075. Hooked-up or Relationship: Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: Neither.
077. Muscular or Normal: No idea. just not too muscular...

Have you ever
078. Kissed a stranger: eew, no.
079. Broken a bone: Nope
080. Lost glasses or contacts: not that i could recall
081. ran away from home: no. where would i go then?
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: whoa, i hoped.
083. Killed somebody: What on earth for?
084. Broken someone's heart: No
085. Had your heart broken: A little
086. Been arrested: oh hell no.
087. Cried when someone died: No
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: Sad to say, yes.

Do you believe in
089. Yourself: ...I'm not sure...
090. Miracles: Yes
091. Love at first sight: No, don't think so.
092. Heaven: YES! ^^
093. Santa Claus: Haha, i used to.
094. Tooth fairy: EW, no.
095. Kiss in the first date: No.
096. Angels: Hmm, i guess so.

Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?
eh? no.

098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now?
Well, for now, definitely.

099. Do you believe in God?
Of course i do! XDXD

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.


I tag:
Felicia Yong
Daniel Sya
Valerie Sya
Cher Maine
Hazel Tan

whoa.. i'm done XD
now i can go to sleep... haha tks germaine ^^

Love Story

Hehz, for those who know me, well, they know my condition. there is no way in hell i'll announce my problem on this blog ^^ anyway, as usual, i was thinking of an essay to write (for my group's oral exam) when i found my perfect inspiration: Taylor Swift's Love Story.

LOL, its a weird way to get inspired, but oh well. i really love this song's lyrics... its like a real love story - that will never happen... XD

We were both young when I first saw you

I close my eyes and the flashback starts

I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns

See you make your way through the crowd and say hello

Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."

And I was crying on the staircase,begging you, 'Please, don't go.'

And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew

So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while.

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter

And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"

But you were everything to me

I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'

And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh, I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever comin' around

My faith in you was fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said,"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone

I keep waiting for you but you never come

Is this in my head? I don't know what to think-"

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,

"Marry me, Juliet. you'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all I really know

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress

It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you...

excuse my obsession in random songs... that's just how i am. =)

Be My Valentine?

sigh, Valentine's Day is here! LOVE is in the air... i can feel it! it feels... nauseating. anyway... i would like to say HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all my best friends, friends, family... (i feel like i just won an Emmy Award). thank you for being there all the time... really appreciate it! XD

spend full amount with your loved ones, guys! you will never know what can happen.

*many hugs and kisses*

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! <3

Dream, Dream...

guess what? i saw, first-hand, a really nice device that i've seen only on displays in shopping malls. they call it the iPod Classic (5th generation). 60 GB, and i went, "Oo la la..."

LOL here's a picture of them... in two colours:

now there's a new iPod Classic. 120 GB for a reasonable price... here it is:

cool, isn't it? haha, it looks so... hi-tech. lol, that's all for now, i should think. okay, till next time...

Updates?

well, wow. it's been how long, since i left this thing alone...? almost four weeks. haha what a month. not much had happened, but then again, its only January, for crying out loud! well, let's go through the list of things i've done.

its my most crucial year, as my classmates and friends and i will be sitting for our major government exam in November (i think). so i've been studying, studying, studying... well, it's not like i had any other choice, now do i? my mother has cut my computer privileges to only two days a week (weekends. even my weekends are booked with tuitions and plenty of homework!), stopped me from reading my fictional story books... oh man, this is torture! no reading??? this is too much. i hope all this studying will pay off eventually.

this year, i'm a senior in school... my last year in school. somehow, i don't feel sad... neither do i feel ecstatic. i cannot believe all my once-in-a-lifetime dreams are taken away by certain people. since i was a kid, i always wanted to do things i see the seniors do in school. responsible things, might i add. my mother will kill me if she caught me doing bad stuff. i worked so hard... so damn hard to achieve these dreams, only to be taken away by some... (i don't have the heart to call them names) ding dongs! they don't even know the school long enough, and they snatch all the positions they can get. i hate this year's school system. they changed everything.

and then, there's the Chinese New Year... where we get plenty of angpau (red packets) filled with very little money. haha, that's ok, as long as there's money in it ^^ i ate plenty, so i'll have to go on an even more strict diet after this festival. Happy Chinese New Year to all you people XD

well, that's all for the time being. when i get back to school, who knows what will happen? well, for one, i can already see that it's back to business. no more games, it's studying time! oh, i hope we'll get through this.

ok this is post no. 28, with Kimmy signing out! till next time... =P

A Note

well, people, this is it. school's starting tomorrow, so i won't be able to use my computer for a long time. since it is my crucial year, now in 2009, there would probably be less updates... and stuff. i am so going to miss this place.

i have actually gotten an earful just to use this computer for a few minutes to type this post. so this post must seem very boring, right? i can't think straight because i am going to get another earful when i shut down soon.

anyway, i hope i would be able to at least do one or two updates. maybe, just maybe.

well, don't miss me too much... LOL tch... yeah right XD

see you again soon!